Iwrestledabearonce

From feeling like there is little hope to finding someone who will make me as happy as she once did to feeling happier than I have ever had w/ in just weeks. What started as a phone call to help a friend in time of comfort soon...actually immediately turned into an immediate connection between two people who would have a stronger connection than ever anticipated. I called her cuz she wasn't doing to well, she was goin thru things w/ someone, I felt the need to help...be a friend. Well as tht phone call began, just hearing her voice made me feel something I haven't felt in a long while. It wasn't till 30-45 minutes into the phone call that we got to what we set to talk about....her guy situation, but at that point she wasn't even thinking about it.....and all I could think about was her. We talked every night for hours fromt that night on. We weren't aniticipating our emotions to grow like they did, let alone how fast they did. She lives in Colorado....me in California. So we thought, well we can be good friends, but no more, the distance wouldn't work out all to well. Until she remembered her plans (before we began tlking to eachother) that she was moving to california in April. Bringing hope to what potential we had. For the first time in a long time I had a conversation with someone till the sunrise the next day. Best part of that, not one moment of awkward silence or boredom! Laughs and giggle the entire time. We made eachother so happy it literally hurt, mid laugh we'd say to the other "ouch, my cheecks hurt from smiling so much!" And it was true, fucking hurt! But it was a good pain. We kept talking on, day after day realizing just how much her and I had in common. Every phone call we were in awe w/ how much we learn about the other person! There is not one thing I dont love in this girl. As things went on, it was made apparent that we have definitely developed some intense feelings for eachother, and we couldn't hide it from one another. I couldn't hold it back, I had to tell her one night "Yeli...I really really like you, and I've really fallen for you!" and she giggle, sounding cuter than ever, and returning the words explaining that she feels the same way. But me being dependant on attention from girls I still looked for a girl to keep me tied up till april, plainly put I went thru a few girls learning that all that happens w/ me is I get hurt from girls who lie, decieve, act fake, use me, and lead me on. And after every girl has tossed me aside...she is always there to pick me, bring that warm feeling in my heart and smile to my face. It was just recently that I realized I have to stop looking for a girl, cuz I have had her the whole time! So as the days passed we began to fall harder and harder for eachother, until the words just had to be said..... i said it.. "Jessica, I love you!" and again, she got all giggly and returned the favor, "Christian, I love you too". Ever since those words we've acted like bf/gf....but no title. Till I began to hint at it, and then we just said...ok we can't keep at this, we are together now! And it was set! Now only time will tell where this all goes! I love my Yelibear!