If It means enough to me....it should matter enought to you

I realized, listening to A Day to Remember's song " If it means alot to you", that yea, i do have really strong feelings for this girl. Like nothing i've had in a long while..... there is a small part of me longing and hoping that me and my ex will someday have another chance (but I think my chances have all run out for that one). I ultimately wanna be w/ this girl...she is incredible in more ways than she can see, but I can't tell her because of the repetition of it. I ulimately want some one to tell me, and sometimes just show me that they really care about me. Fuck you I don't care if this makes me look like a bitch, Im really goin through some wierd new shit in my life right now. Cuz i know someone will say, "You sound like a bitch....you don't have a dick, blah blah fuckin blah" Watvs, srry that came out, I'm just going crazy here. I have strong feelings for so many things....I'm being emotionally torn in many peaces. Just from time to time, someone out of know where....give me a hug, tell me you care.... I need some love right now....It would be nice. I'm trying so hard at this moment to hold my self together, but I feel like I'm the only one left to stitch all the peaces....someone wanna grab a needle and thread and wanna maybe help me put this together?....im just gonna go with the flow, not fight the current, and see where everything takes me....we can only hope, and ya never know till ya actually know.